Back to the days of nothing to do.

Sometimes I wish Joe knew how to play at least one instrument.

I haven't touched this thing since June. I want to get back into it, and I think the perfect thing to coax me into it is The FEST 8. I'll be leaving Thursday morning for one of the best adventures of my life. We'll see how much I document it. It's like touring, but not touring.

I need to chill the fuck out.

A few days ago, I learned a new pet peeve of mine.

I hate being in a room with new people and not being introduced. Especially when your friend brought you into the room and he is the link between the strangers and yourself. Just say something.

I've had an on-going fear for the last couple years that my hairline is receding and my hair is falling out/thinning. I think if anything even remotely makes me question this, then it has to be happening slowly over time.

Purge

My ex-girlfriend is gone, and now lives five hours away.

That can be interpreted in a straight-forward way, but to me, there is so much more meaning there. One of my best friends has moved away. My bass player has moved away. My band is in a state of hiatus and uncertainty.

She moved to Philadelphia to start the next chunk of her life. I won't lie, I worried when she didn't go to college after graduating high school. She took her time and did what she wanted to do, and over time, I respected her decisions, realized she was doing what she was wanting, and it was working, and basically became jealous. I wish I would have been able to take my time and let things play out as they should. She moved to the city for a year and worked two jobs, made a decent amount of money, bought things she wanted, and had a great time with new found friends. The band lived on, and we still hung out with all our friends back at home on occasion. Good for her. Take your time and decide what you want to do. She is moving to Philly to experience something new for the summer, and be settled in for school in the fall. School that she has put so much time and effort into planning and deciding and re-evaluating options. Proud of her.

But obviously, there is more to it than that.

This can all be combined with the fact that it is now June 1st, school resumes in August. I absolutely NEED an internship for both the Fall and Spring semesters to be a full time student, to get financial aid, and to graduate and finish up this four year fucking obligation. I have no desire to do this art thing anymore. I like painting here and there, and designing flyers. I like music and the art that relates to it. When my advisor, a nun, overly-structuralizes (I made that up) the Graphic Design curriculum, is extremely conservative in her style of teaching, and provides no sense of assistance in her advising, I feel like I made all the wrong decisions in my secondary education. And my friends have jobs, aren't stressing, and know what they want to do.

Now, this could all be overreaction. She could come home a lot and we could all get back together and have a good time every now and then. But coupled with the anxiety of the last few summers and the difficulty of getting our group of friends together, it just adds to the stress and the realization that we're all growing up and slowly piecing together the puzzle of turning into adults. You get caught up and its really hard to plan even a fucking bonfire that's been talked about for months. It freaks me the fuck out that my best friend from elementary school has his life planned out, he has an 18-dollar-an-hour internship this summer and knows what he wants to do. He can finish school and stay with this company. I can't even begin to force myself to look for an internship in the fall, let alone think about doing this shit for a living.

So even if this is a big jump for Kayla, I feel like it's also on the cusp of a new chunk of my unguided life. School is important, I have one year left, and after that year, I have no desire to work with computers or the programs I have "learned" to use in the past three years. I know what I like to do but at the same time I have no idea what I want to do.

Music is a big part of my life. I have put so much time and effort into trying to get to a state that I am satisfied with. I always tell myself and others I have no goals, and I try to find subconscious goals that may be lurking in my head, but all I find are little ones in music. Record something. Put out a physical object showing what I've done. Do a tour. These are all music related goals. Graphic design? What?

Now if anyone knows me, they know everything that has gone on with the band over the past... who knows how long when it comes to drummers and the trials and tribulations. Kayla moving to Philly may be a good thing, with Jorgan there, they could work on material and have me come in when they have done their parts. The way our band has been, this could be the best thing to happen to it in a while. But what are the odds of that? Even then, how can you keep something so long-distance going? I feel like The Hormones are basically done. I feel like all of my hard work, effort, patience, and trial and error through all these years of playing music has crumbled into nothing again and I'm back at the beginning. Sitting in the basement dreaming of a band, realizing how far out of reach it is. Playing nonsense for hours that only creates an headache and ringing in our ears.

So I am willing to try something new, start a new band, see if a long distance-Hormones works out, whatever. I'm always eager to accept a challenge and see what I can do. But in the end, the school thing just adds to the culmination of all the stress and should be my focal point right now. The ringing in my ears isn't going to go away, and neither is the stress.

I think that covers everything.

Technically two days left in this semester. Cut the ties from this place and I'm gone. The only bad part is the three days straight of work at Sheetz afterward, but they should go pretty quick. And hey, three eight-hour days can be rounded to about 240 bucks, right? Can't go wrong there.

I've had these chest pains off and on over the past week or so. I feel like they're going away but I really have no idea. They may have something to do with the sore throat that I've had for even longer. Today is the day to figure this out.

Excuse me for interrupting your midday kissing session.

Excuse me for interrupting your daily episode of Maury at 4PM Eastern time.

Excuse me for not realizing that you guys go to bed before midnight the majority of the time.

Excuse me, I would like to have my fucking guitar and strap back someday soon.

Excuse me for asking when the "fifth roommate" is actually going to start paying rent.

I would like to please have a parking spot to come home to every night.

Thanks.

433

In one room, a kid sits on his bed listening to Alkaline Trio and Lawrence Arms records, singing choruses and melodies about being drunk, death, and rotting corpses.

On the other side of the wall, a girl is spread out on her bed, talking on the phone and coping with the loss of her ex-boyfriend's mother, and her distant boyfriend who will be going to Iraq.

On the other side of her wall, a slightly overweight guy took some pills and medicine, and passed out extra early in hope to get over nausea, after a day of sitting around watching tv, eating unhealthy, and playing video games.

Under him, a guy and his girlfriend went to bed extra early, spending the night together, sleeping together and keeping each other cramped, too hot from each other's body heat, but in love, of course.

This is in or around midnight. The blunt and honest truth.

I'm back in Greensburg.

Teabags and Peas.

Swelling is kinda crappy, my cheeks feel tight. I don't look like a chipmunk though.

No pain, surprisingly. It's noon and I haven't taken vicodin in 6 hours. Just took 2 advils though.

Bleeding still. Just a little bit, nothing crazy.

Just been sleeping. Going back to sleep now. Icing my cheeks with peas. I was stuffing teabags wrapped in gauze in my cheeks but that just got annoying.

No crazy dreams, no crazy visions, nothing exciting.

I want out of the house.

My mouth needs to dumb itself down.

Wisdom teeth out on Monday.

Not stoked.

I wanna keep it documented as best as possible. Shit should get interesting afterwards.

I'll be at home, no school, no work til Friday, so nothing to do. Go internet, go video games.

Documentation? Please!

And the story goes like this.

Some things in this world you just can't grasp Strange shit happens out of no where that really makes you think. I can get all philosophical, or I can tell things the way that I saw them. I am sick of retelling this story, so I'll type it out

The key to painting a vivid picture is to accurately describe the setting.
It was Valentines Day night, February 14th, 2009. I was never a fan of Valentine's Day, but a series of events led to a hyped up Valentine's Day this year. Gabby, one of my roommates, told us that her boyfriend was coming up to visit from Texas. He isn't home much, he's in the army, and the last time he was up in Greensburg, Gabby had her friends over and they all played beer pong and made a get together out of it. We all like Matt here, so we figured it's time to get everyone together. So henceforth, the big Valentine's Day party.

It wasn't even supposed to be a party, just a get together with our friends.

So then we get to my side of the story. I love my friends, and I love the fact that I have only a handful up in Greensburg. This handful is fucking great. We are tight as shit, yo. So I figured if Gabby and company will be having fun, I'll have Marie, Nick, and Ashlan over. After all, we've been drinking here for the last 3 weekends, the last 6 weekend nights, etc. So let's keep the train rolling.
Anyways, Gabby's friends left around 1 am. Following this was the nightly acoustic guitar session in the living room between me and Nick. Gabby and Matt hung out with the four of us and Matt was all about it singing and playing a snare drum I brought downstairs. They disappeared off to bed a little while later. Of course, when you're drunk, time flies. Somehow, it got to around 3 am. Marie and I were talking about life and realized Nick and Ashlan were passed out. That happens a lot. They wake up pretty easy though.

We migrated upstairs to my bedroom, since my room is always warm. Nick and Ashlan always bring their sleeping bags, and they were in Ashlan's car. Nick decided to go down to the car and get the sleeping bags. Keep in mind, we were all still pretty drunk at this time.

Nick was walking to the car, which was parked down Ohara from our house, where we always park, when he heard a cop yelling a bunch of stuff towards him. "Get down! Get out of here! Get away!" All that kind of stuff. Nick didn't want to look suspicious so he just walked back up to the car. He came into the house and told us that there was a cop outside, so we moved to the room next to my bedroom. Perfect centered view of the street below, all the way down to 130.

Our house is on a hill overlooking Ohara Street, on the corner of Ohara and Harrson. If you drive up the hill on Ohara, you would hit our house if you do not drive around our house at the intersection. Therefore, our top floor windows overlooked the whole situation, which took place down towards the bottom of the hill near 130. The house was near the corner of Concord and Ohara, which was 1 street down from Harrison. We didn't see the house, but we saw the cop cars and the majority of the action.

At this point, cars started pouring off of 130 onto Ohara, and we knew something was up. Police lights and police everywhere. There was a police car parked halfway up the street with a couple of officers taking cover with guns over the side of the car the whole night. The whole time, we had our theories about what was going on, but come on, we had no idea.

I would say at this point it was going on 4:00 AM , we knew something was up, and it was still very dark out. We set up shop in the little room and started to listen in on the action. We opened the windows and screens and froze our asses off while Ashlan and Marie were passed out in my room. We heard slight chatter from the various cops and tried to listen in to the radio. We heard things about a 2nd floor.

At this point, like I said, I was out of it, so I remember details here and there. No specific order.

There were guys coming in and out with a pretty large amount of body armor on. There were shields and rifles.
Some of these guys ran from yard to yard, inching back towards the main house, and then making their way back to safety.
The silhouettes were creepy in the slight light that we could see.

At first, we would hear gunshots here and there, and we would hear breaking glass. Nick and I kept looking at each other. Were those really gun shots?

The police evacuated a house across the street from the ground zero house and had the family leave for the extent of the incident. What really amazed me is the cops ran up to the back porch, and unscrewed a flood light that was on to give themselves some added stealth. This seems like this was pretty much their base and cover.

Police vehicles would come and go, and more personnel would arrive. Pedestrians would drive by and be turned around. We remained unnoticed, perched up in my top floor.

At some point while it was still dark out, a police officer acquired a megaphone and this is when things really started to heat up.

A common phrase was, "Joe, come to the window."
"Joe, you gotta stop firing rounds and breaking windows if we are going to cooperate."
"Joe, you gotta speak up. Come to the window."

We could hear the officer loud and clear, but not Joe. Just the fact that he was yelling.

There was a period of time where they kept asking him for his cell phone number, and his dad's cell phone number. I guess his dad wasn't answering his cell phone, and they asked for the house phone number. I'm not really sure if they ever did get ahold of his dad, which is sad. The phone period went on for a while. They kept telling him to relax, and that they were going to get him a phone.

As it got lighter, more police officers were evident in different areas around the neighboring houses. The big bags that we saw some of the men carrying turned out to be dogs. There were more and more guys in armor, and more and more guys with large guns. Spots of darkness dissolved into three or four bodies at a time.

Also, as it got lighter, I decided to grab my camera and my zoom lens. I hung out of the window and tried to get as many photos as I could. I tried developing them tonight and a lot of the ones that did come out looked pretty dark, so we'll see how that goes. I think I ruined the roll of film.

Around this time, people started walking around, realizing something was going on. A man strolled by walking his dog, and he stopped to talk to the cop who was still in a car below our house.

"What's going on? Car wreck down there or something?"
The cop rolled down his window, "What?"
"Car wreck?"

Out of no where, there were 2 consecutive shots. The first almost sounded like a smaller gun, like the earlier shots, and the second shot that immediately followed had the distinct crack of a shotgun. The guy walking the dog took off running down Harrison. He stopped and came back towards the cop car. Yeah, car wreck, right. Nick and I had a feeling something went down at this point, and there was silence for a while.

"Joe, come to the window."
"Come to the window, Joe."

There was nothing. It got lighter, and an ambulance showed up in no hurry. We figured Joe killed himself, but apparently this late in the incident, he took his FIRST shot at a police officer. Another police officer fired in defense, and ended the conflict. It was obvious that this whole thing was going to end with a sad resolution.

Seton Hill went on lockdown and lots of phone calls were made. We weren't allowed to leave the house for a little while. Nick, Ashlan, and Marie eventually made their way back to Seton Hill and I went to bed. By now, it was going on 9:30 AM. I had to work at 2 PM. The action was over, but the whole incident won't be for a while. School will be awkward and I didn't even know the kid. Rest in peace.

Richard wants to be an astronaut

I grew up in, what I at least consider, the golden age of Nintendo. My cousin gave me his original Nintendo Entertainment System when I was three years old, and I remember the whole occasion vividly. My aunt brought it over to our house on some rainy night, along with a good few dozen of games. My dad couldn't even figure out how to connect it to the television the next day—I remember my uncle came over to help him and it was a big ordeal. Regardless, I spent an extreme amount of time in front of the TV playing that little gray box of a machine. To this day, it still functions, and I ocassionally play it on a day to day basis.
The point is, I was introduced to video games early on in life, and they played an integral role in my childhood. Growing up, I always said I wanted to make Nintendo games for a living. Obviously, this idea, vision, or goal, whatever it is, would evolve and change over time, especially after gaining more knowledge of how the real world works.
Somewhere along the line, I learned how to draw and took a liking to it. I think this combined with my video game obsession and started paving my future. I took art classes through elementary school and kept up with it until eighth grade. My art teacher at the time formed an art club, and long story short, ruined the experience for me entirely. I changed my mind.
One thing that is true is the fact that I have always been an indecisive person. Even when I go shopping, it takes me at least a solid minute to decide whether I want the $1.39 pasta or the $1.62 pasta. I'm also one of the thriftiest people I have ever met, but that is not the point. I gave art a second try towards the latter part of high school. I was going to college—I knew that for a fact. My parents drilled that into my head. But what for? I was good at art, why the hell not? Graphic Design was where it was at.
I had no idea Graphic Design did not exactly constitute character design and animation, which is what I ideally wanted to do. I ended up at Seton Hill because I wanted to stay somewhat local, and I think that was my first mistake. Seton Hill did not have what I wanted—I joined the Graphic Design program and slowly, over time, realized that magazine layouts aren't the same thing as three dimensional video game and movie characters. No big deal, I still slightly enjoyed what I was working on. Good financial aid trapped me into staying at this school.
Now during all of this, my love of music and playing music was growing immensely. I started playing guitar in ninth grade and kept at it ever since. I have been in and out of numerous bands, and now have a good grasp on five different instruments. This was all on my own, no pressure from any outside sources. Music has always been a fierce competitor with my schooling, and I do have my regrets in not going to school for some sort of music career. What this all comes down to is the obvious “what do I want to be in my future?” What do I want to be when I grow up?
What do I want to be when I grow up? What don't I want to be? I do not want to sit in some white collar office with over-cranked air conditioning for some company with no emotional or creative drive. I do not want to crunch numbers. I do not want to be a part of a business where their only need for you is to help spread the master plan of the whole scheme and make the higher-up executives their “hard-earned” dollars. What do I want to be when I grow up? I want to be an astronaut. I want to magically acquire the skills and physique to be able to be catapulted up into space, walk around on the moon, and make it back to this planet in one piece. I want to magically acquire the skills to throw together million-seller video games.
Unfortunately, though, this whole future thing really isn't too far away. It basically starts in about a year and a half. That is entirely too soon. Now is when I have to start thinking realistically. I have to be rational. Logic is key. I want to “be” me. When I graduate from this school, I do not want to jump headfirst into a career as I jumped headfirst into school and I regretted it. I want to take time and do what I enjoy doing. I want to play music. Sure, I want to try and find my way into a career, but I do not want to be tied down and restricted by a job that I will be working for the rest of my life.

senor and the queen?

Sorrow.

Sometimes inspiration runs a little low in this world. In turn, it is sorta tough to keep up on this thing every single day. Last night I was trying to think of something to come up with today and I was drawing a blank. I went to WalMart with my roommate Joe and I was told that this could be the cure to all my problems. Something ridiculous about the trip would spark an idea or some sort of rant about life and my life and how it all sucks.

Did anything come up throughout the night? Did WalMart help? Does WalMart ever help? Hell no.

One thing did happen though right after Joe was checking out. I was pacing around the store aimlessly like I always do and I saw him start walking away from the register with his bags. He didn't walk straight to the door though, he veered. I knew something was up when Joe veered. Joe then bent over to pick something up. I then realized what was going on. The summofabitch found a coin on the ground. I walked over to inspect the situation and it turns out he found a shiny new quarter of a trinket. Mixed feelings of anger and regret shot down my spine. Why couldn't I have paced in the other direction? This quarter was pretty damn shinny. I would have seen it on the ground for sure.

Why couldn't it have been a penny? Or even a nickel or a dime? I bet he wouldn't of touched the thing. I know what he would have done. He would have eyed it up, while tucking his receipt away in his wallet, and said something like, "Hey Jon, there's a ____ on the ground." I would have walked over, happy as a puppy chasing a soft new squeeky toy, and picked that fucker right up. There would have been no conflict or regret in the story.

I've been told I am uptight penny-pincher. Not at all.

Fuck you Joe.

Hi, how many?

Last night we did something we planned on doing for (what Anthony says has been) two years. Jobs, school, and lack of money always hindered any possible trips. We being Zach, Kayla, Anthony, and I. We took a well-deserved trip to Shogun in Monroeville. For the unaware, Shogun is your typical Japanese Hibatchi restaurant, with a little extra class and it costs a little extra cash. I've been there before, and luckily, it was a birthday gift when Kayla and I were dating, so I never had to experience the pain of paying. This time though, we figured it would be mean to split the check at such a nice place, so we went all-in with cash. The question was, how much do we really need?

To prepare, we made a pit stop at the bank on the way, which was a pain in the ass, along with finding Shogun afterwards and doing an unnecessary u-turn that my GPS insisted that I do. It was raining, it was night, I hate driving in the rain at night, etc. What made it worse is A.) I hate driving to/through Monroeville all together and B.) I hate driving in the rain at night on unfamiliar roads. Multilane highways that you really can't tell where the lines are due to much glare from business, street, and car lights and rain drops clinging to car windows. No major problems, but enough of an annoyance to bring up questions such as, "Where the fuck is the lane?" "I dunno, just trust the fucking GPS." Especially on turns and at intersections. Fucking rain.

After turning around once or twice, doing the unnecessary, magic u-turn, and waiting outside, then inside, then outside for Kayla, we got seated. We got seated with a mom/2 sisters/big sister's boyfriend, whom which we were talking about and hoping we wouldn't get seated with. They enjoyed our company, and our conversations about girls shaving, I'm sure. We all tore through the complementary soup and salad, which were good as always, and not too filling.

I wanted my fucking sushi. California rolls... which, I dunno, may technically not be sushi? I don't care, I have been craving them, and even thought I ate 3 of them, they were damn good. A good hold-over until the main fucking event. God damn, was that wait painful.

At once, it all began. I knew shit was going to get ugly when I saw a larger, middle-aged, white guy wheel a cart over to our table/grill. But maybe he is just getting things ready for our cook? No. Anthony took advantage of our (assumably) Pennsylvanian native and told him to surprise him on his meat-cooking. Not medium, not well, not rare. Surprise him. Go fucking kill a cow and bring it in, throw it on a plate. This guy looked just burly enough to where he could probably do so with his bare hands.

This guy never told us his name. He didn't even have a name tag on. He wasn't foreign. We will name him Brice. He looked like a Brice, or a Lloyd, or a Greg. Lighter colored brown or blonde hair, sideburns, some facial hair, etc. He looked like he played football in high school, didn't quite cut it out for the big college circuit, and ended up majoring in Culinary Arts. He never quite worked off those extra lineman pounds. "Dudes, guess what?! I get to be a hibatchi chef at Shogun! When I'm not working, we can go back to my place and play Madden on my fuckin' 360. And I can bring us assloads of good food home from work." Good job Brice, make mom (and yer bros) proud.
Let's get to the bottom line... Brice wasn't too entertaining. Everyone says, "hopefully you don't get the white dude." We got the white dude alright. No questions asked. He choked on pepper and smoke mid-cooking. He made a joke out of it, but the abundance of coughing and arm-flailing was a little unnecessary. Come on, you're a chef. You should be used to this shit. His dices were a little sloppy. His grace wasn't top-notch, he flung a raw slice of carrot on my plate at one point. He diced the shrimp tails off of five or six shrimp, but it looked like he accidentally mixed a few into the pile.

Brice also did way too much shuffling with the metal spatulas. Excuse me for not knowing the name of these things, but anyone who has ever cooked or been to one of these restaurants should know what these are. He did the whole "shuffle-the-food-around-while-making-metal-clinging-noises" a bit too much, while it seemed we were all sitting there thinking, "ok, when does the real show start?" Where is the flame? The onion volcano? The tossing the scraps in the hat? Oh wait, he did do that with one shrimp tail, but he sure as hell didn't do it gracefully.

After some time, we got our complementary giant flame of oil. It must be a requirement bundled into the expensive check. Great. But no fucking onion volcano. I was watching other nearby chefs, noting their performances and accuracy. One guy to the right of me gave his table TWO giant flames. And I saw the onion volcano, too. What a daredevil. Another guy was clinging his metal spatulas around against the salt and pepper shakers, making a shit-ton of noise, but doing it to a beat, making a neat little jingle out of it. Sorry guys, Brice plays it safe.

Brice left us with hefty plates of quality food. The food was damn good. I got shrimp with my meal. I normally do not eat shrimp, let alone shrimp that is not breaded. They use so many spices and flavorings at this place, though, they could hire an asian to squat over the grill and take a shit, piss while shitting, and then wipe a few times and throw the paper down on the grill, throw some sesame seeds on it, and serve it, and it would still taste amazing. Hell, scratch that, they could hire an illegal immigrant mexican to do the previously-mentioned procedure, after he's shingled a house all day, and ate breakfast, lunch, and dinner consisting of nothing but bean burritos. I am not racist. I believe in illegal immigration and I am 100% serious. Anyways, Brice may not have been as entertaining as the other cooks, but he did cook up some good food. And at the end, there was no climactic finish, he just grunted, said something like, "Ok? Enjoy your meals," and walked away.

In the end, after gratuity which was arguably too high, especially for Brice, the grand total was... $153.00. We evened it out at 160 dollars solid in cash, since we're nice restaurant goers, and Kayla's waitress experience rubs off on us all, making our consciences tell us to tip above the required tip. Roughly $40 per person, which, if we would have had a better cook, would have been totally worth it. Still, the food was fucking good, so I wasn't too worried about splooging the extra money out for the night. It was a great dining experience, and I wanna get back there again, preferably within the next two years. The weird thing is though, afterwards, we drove to the movie theatre to see The Spirit over a half-an-hour early, and all decided to go to Eat N Park for dessert. $160.00 dinner and we still had time and the money for molten lava cake. And smiley face cookies. Amber, the nice raspy-voiced cashier, gave us those for free, but that's another story for another day.

A story to pass the time.

I used to have my mom drop me off all the time at my friend Zach's house back when we were in elementary school. We hung out a lot during the summer, and what made things better was he had a decent-sized pool that we were always in. It wasn't heated, but who cares? It was fun. We were kids. We had a good time.

When we weren't sitting in the family room watching Ren and Stimpy or Power Rangers, or scanning R-Rated movies for tits, or playing with his Marble Works sets, or looking through his dad's box of old 70s porno mags, we were swimming.

One summer day, we were having a good ol' time in his yard. It was a bright, sunny summer afternoon. The birds were chirping. We were floating around on the rafts, trying to make wave pools, sticking our dicks in the filter jets. You know, all the good things that young kids do in an above-ground swimming pool. For whatever reason, Zach was getting pissy with me. I have no idea why... this was at least a good 12 years ago.

One factor to mention was the pool was always directly in front of the back porch of the house. Not too far away, and not too close. My mom was always an avid public pool goer. When I wasn't at Zach's in these early elementary-scool summers, I was more than likely at the Elk's pool in Apollo with my mom and my brother, idolizing the lifeguards and being exposed to great 90's music on the radio. This is one thing that really sticks out from my childhood. Going to the pool and listening to the radio.

I'm off subject. As I said, my mom loved going to the pool. She would always buy us a shitload of pool toys. Some were cool, some were lame, cheap plastic that never really entertained our pre-pubescent minds. This particular summer, though, my mom bought us some sweet ass diving sticks. These sticks were filled with sand, and of course, the caps of them eventually cracked from hitting into the bottom of a cement public pool. The sand would soak up with water, and these diving sticks would get heavy.

I probably wanted to go in the house and play with his damn Marble Works. These were basically stackable tubes that you put together in any way/shape/form and rolled marbles through. Bad fucking ass. I must have said something to piss him off. He was on his back porch drying off, and I was still wading around in the pool. He pulled a diving stick out of a plastic bag on the porch and threw it at me. I ducked into the water, but the motherfucking stick still hit me in the head.
We must have been arguing about something, because at this point, while underwater, I remember thinking, "That's it, fuck this. Piece of shit. Suck it." I grabbed the stick off the bottom of the pool - it was the fucking orange stick - jumped back up out of the water, and whipped it back towards the house as hard as I could.

I never played too many sports growing up, let alone excelled at any sports. I quit playing tee ball only three years in. I never went any farther, didn't enjoy it. It was something I did for my dad. I played basketball 3rd grade through 7th grade. I sucked at running, I have always had horrible coordination, I was never strong, and I sure as hell had terrible accuracy.

But anyways, all hell broke loose. The diving stick flew into the sliding glass window, first making a loud, echoey DONK noise, producing a few seconds of panic that seemed to go on for hours, and then the whole fucking pane of glass shattered. I was fucked. Zach stood there in disbelief. It just got worse.

Apparently Zach's mom was in the kitchen working on dinner for us at the time. The kitchen was the room that these sliding glass doors led you into. There's the kicker though. Here's the true irony and the plot twist. This is what makes the fucking movies Oscar winners. Zach's mom was 8 months pregnant at the time. The glass from the door shattered and scattered in all directions, with shards of it cutting through Zach's mom's stomach.
All of the screaming and yelling apparently sped up the incubation process, and Zach's mom went into labor. I was still standing in the pool, having no fucking idea what to do. Zach was standing on the porch crying, since, you know, we were still young kids. He didn't have any idea what to do either.

Zach's dad had just came home from work minutes before this happened. I'm pretty sure he was in the garage or coming through the basement when the actual door shattered. He made his way upstairs to the kitchen, and he definitely heard the conflict a-brewing. I feared that when I saw his truck inch up the driveway, and I knew it was going to happen at some point. George came running up the steps into the kitchen.

Just as he screamed something incoherent and ran to his wife, the baby dropped to the kitchen linoeum. No pushing or effort needed.
A+++ determination of the baby, will do business again, great eBayer!

THE BABY WAS FUCKING GROTESQUE. The glass apparently took a toll on his body, so in addition to the typical gross birth-juices that was making this purple fetus ugly, there were also cuts all over him/her. Zach's dad, more than likely in shock and acting on instinct, did what he had to do. To my amazement, he wasted no time and ran to the door frame, ripping the largest chunk of glass from the pile. He proceeded to cut the umbilical cord with this glass. He picked up the baby, ran through the door frame, out onto the patio, down the steps, past the pool, and through the yard. He made his way to the woods. These woods in Zach's back yard are on a hill, and at the bottom of the hill is a pretty busy highway, especially during the day time. A main route for mac trucks and pedestrians alike.

I never did really see what happened, as it was mid-summer, the leaves were thick, and the brush was high. But all I know is I heard Zach's dad let out a grunt, heard the baby screaming and crying the whole time, and then the cries quickly grew fainter into nothing. Zach's dad emerged from the brush and staggered back to the brush, his head down the whole time. I stood prune-y in the pool, staring in disbelieve. What the FUCK just happened?



This never happened.

i once met a girl on a bus
she didnt seem to know where exactly she was going
and i had no direction either,
but i knew what i needed to do
commenting on her hair
i offered her a seat, she agreed to share
and she said,
there is no god
the world is more peaceful that way
there is no god
and the world seemed to be so much better than it ever was
if there was no religion
there would be far less war

Busy. Doing nothing.

I feel tired and restless.
I'm growing old and bored.
Are we aging? Are we maturing?
Are we doing both? Are we doing neither?

What the fuck do we know?
What the fuck do we know?

My chest is on the brink of explosion.
Filled with words and emotions that can't reach the surface.
My hands shake too much.
All they seem to write is repetitious.

What the fuck do we know?

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Last.Fm

I'm tired of procrastinating.