Lose this skin.

Every now and then I get the urge to write in here.  This little, innocent, white box that eventually turns into something that everyone can see.  I get the urge to write music, I want to write new songs.  More often than anything else, I'll sit on my bed, strum a few chords, work with a couple vocal melodies, and decide, "Today isn't the day."  Other end results include re-workings of songs I already have written and recorded and played for a few years.  Tonight was one of those nights.  The creative process is a bitch.  Yet, at the same time.

Recently I feel like my time is extremely limited and pinpointed.  Living in a house with three people who really have nothing to do with music.  It just isn't my thing.  Especially on nights when everyone is sleeping three hours before I am.  I want to use this time for creativity and I feel restricted.  It stresses me out.  I am here for school, sure.  I want to graduate, I want to live and make enough money to be comfortable.  But at the same time, fucking live a little.  

I hate inactivity.  I strive for productivity on a day to day basis.  I hate the fact that I try to keep in motion for the most of my day, and I try to keep busy.  Yet, some people can be content with watching tv during their downtime.  And not just a half an hour here and there, but for hours at a time.  Really, what do you get out of that?

I try to live. I want to branch out my hobbies.  I want to constantly learn how to play new instruments.  I want to constantly improve my graphic design skills.  And you have the ideal couch-potato figure mentioned above.  How do they sleep at night?

I need a solution.  I will write all that I can through this blog.  At first, this was to document interesting show experiences.  Those will continue to pop up, but more often than not, this may be a day to day blog.

So regardless of the situation, I will try to make a new hobby out of this.  I will write no matter the occasion.  I just have to keep telling myself that it will assist in creativity.  It will spawn inspiration.  Am I right?